For some reason even though I
have a disease where my immune system works overtime, part of it is you're prone
to chronic infections and rashes. I've researched
online and concluded that modern American treatment, with more
and more stronger antibiotics and steroids, is not the direction I
want to go in living with this as long as I can.
So instead I let the infections play out, let my immune system carry out
the battle, make my own immune system fight right there in front of anyone
who encounters me.
At any given time, there could be something oozing from any number of places around my body.
Makes me a lot of fun on an
outing.
Last night I went to a group therapy
sort of place and something in the room got my left eye reacting. Soon the skin was red and raw, the eye was
running and swollen, the salt from the runny eye irritated the raw skin around the
eye. Even water made it burn.
Just as the meeting started
my eye started running and running. Soon
I could feel, as I've felt before, a little formation like a pimple formed under the bottom eyelid and as I
sat in the room, I would occasionally touch the pimple-like growth. Of
course it started draining. So I kept
touching my eye with a wet tissue while the puss drained out, and just
continued taking part in the group session with everybody, as if nothing was
unusual at all.
I feel like I'm falling
apart. Like parts of me are rotting and
falling off, like a skeleton losing its cover, but I'm still alive. So what if my elements are starting to fall
off while I stand in front of people talking.
Who knew, growing old would come with these amazing new challenges to your physical being, like ones you never imagined at all.
This post started earlier today:
Part 1:
Me and My Auto Immune Syndrome
Part 2
I feel like a Tim Burton character, Auto Immune Syndrome part 2
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