I am glad Epstein files are so ubiquitous as now all survivors can say the word pedophile in public

When you said the word pedophile in 2012, it would bring all conversation in the room to an abrupt halt. Reprinted below is a post I wrote 14

Enough Abuse***

years ago titled The Big Thud plus 2 more recent posts about it.

The Epstein files release has seriously triggered me as a pedophile priest Survivor. In 2012 when I  was reporting on the crimes, (https://cityofangels12.blogspot.com/) if  someone asked me what I was writing about, as soon as I said pedophile priests,  conversation in the room would come to an abrupt and silent  halt. 

Even though more than 100,000 survivors came forward in the period beginning in the 1980s up to as recently as 2012, you just could not bring the subject up in public. For me, a survivor and journalist writing about the subject, people's reactions to my blogs were so bad that I've had to move two times; and it happened again where I live now, when the neighbors found out I was writing about pedophile priests in the Catholic church, I got bullied in frightening ways,

Read about it here-:

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USA sided with pedophile priests, and soon after, the nation fell- The book I never finished writing; read it here: https://cityofangelslady.blogspot.com/2024/09/prologue.html

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So I was bullied Once in Chicago then in Lancaster California; and in the building where I live now here up in South Lake Tahoe, I can't move again so I've become pretty much of a hermit instead.

Grateful for Jeffrey Epstein

However, today I am a pedophile Survivor who is glad the Epstein files have become so public because now all of a sudden the public is inured to the word pedophile, used to it, not going to be shocked at all when you say it.

In fact I wrote a post Aug 2020, pasted below, about a guy shouting Democrats are pedophiles on the bus and nobody was even listening. (It is not okay to shout 'Pedophile' in a crowd https://cityofangels25.blogspot.com/2020/08/it-is-not-okay-to-shout-pedophile-in.html )

Now in fact we hear the word pedophile so often in the news and on podcasts that it doesn't shock anyone; but I had to go through a period of bad triggering before I could deal with Epstein et al. 

The slow release of the Epstein files has in a way liberated me to write more about the pedophile priests and as a result I have been producing this series and will continue it shortly.

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Catholic Priest & Epstein pedophile crime similarities, SERIES SO FAR- Both had islands in the Caribbean and isolated ranches in NM; Doctrine from above gave them both immunity; w both survivors have PTSD & want more indictment- Sparked by V Giuffre book https://cityofangels25.blogspot.com/2026/06/pedo-priest-epstein-survivor.html

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Unfortunately right now I'm dealing with histamine intolerance that comes with autoimmune disease that comes with having PTSD since age 5 as a pedophile priest survivor- I have 4 different rashes on my leg at once- but as soon as I feel good enough I'm going to continue the series.

Meanwhile here is a rerun of a post from 2012 called the Big Thud, because in it I describe what it was like to mention I was writing about pedophile priests at a party and everybody stops talking and and leaves and the party plunges to death.

Friday, May 25, 2012

The Big Thud 

https://cityofangels12.blogspot.com/2012/05/big-thud.html

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I never bring up pedophile priests in public as there's no better way to bring a social situation to a Big Thud than to mention the topic on which I write.

I learned it over a three-year period from just before I started this blog in 2007.  A party can be going fine, everyone happy enjoying themselves, until someone asks me, so what do you write about and my voice would chime in, Oh, I'm a pedophile priest victim and I started this blog...

THUD

The energy in the room comes to a slammed down stop.  It's more than conversation stopping, it's THUD on several different levels.  And I can never back up and get things the way they used to be.  Once the words are out of your mouth, the situation is ruined.  Half the people step away and surreptiously throw out the phone number they got from you earlier.  A few will feel compassion and commisserate, then you find yourself having to be an encyclopedia telling the story from back in 1985...

It just does not work, but I kept bringing it up and bringing rooms to Thuds for a few more years.  The topic of Catholic priests raping children just makes too many people angry, panicked, freaked, it's an experience without precedent in recent human history, to be truthful...

Now I've finally learned to tell people, "I'm a crime victim.  It's not a topic for casual conversation but if you are looking for material on the subject, you'll find me online."

I never asked for the karma of being both a journalist and a pedo-priest victim, it just landed in my lap, and to be honest, I'd rather be swimming...
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-ke

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Sunday, August 30, 2020

It is not okay to shout 'Pedophile' in a crowd 

https://cityofangels25.blogspot.com/2020/08/it-is-not-okay-to-shout-pedophile-in.html 

Thing is, months later, I'm still repeating to myself things I should have said to the jerk shouting "Democrats are pedophiles" on the bus. I'd tell him, "Pedophilia is a serious crime, people who are victims live with repercussions the rest of our lives, last thing we want is to be reminded of it in irrelevant places." Or "Pedophilia is not something you just shout about in public places, there might be a victim of the crime nearby who is living with real consequences." Or "Think a minute. Pedophilia is a Pervert having Sex with a Child. Not a subject for idiots to shout about randomly in public places." 
By Kay Ebeling

I don't remember people hollering about pedophiles in the years before Donald Trump changed everything. I would know if they did, because I'm a pedophile priest survivor so I pay attention to these things. I moved to Tahoe to recover from PTSD caused by discovering I'm not alone but one of hundreds of thousands Americans who were molested by Catholic priests as children, then trying to get justice. Naively, I started a blog where I interviewed dozens of other victims, thinking that just publicizing these crimes would shock Americans so much the Catholic Church would see widespread change. Instead, publishing the stories caused strange things to happen in my personal life that finally intimidated me into stopping the blog and running away to the top of a mountain behind a forest to get away from them.

So last thing I wanted to hear while riding a South Lake Tahoe city bus was a guy hollering, "The Democrats in D.C. are all pedophiles, you just watch they'll all be in prison soon," and when I tried to tell him Pizzagate is not true, he was allowed to shout loudly at me, "Shut the fuck up" over and over again because, you know, it's a libertarian town. What's even worse is at one point I had kind of wanted to get to know that guy better. . .

I got off the bus and went back to my isolated life with yet another layer around me of reasons not to interact with anyone.

Since that time, Covid-19 sent everyone home, and the crimes of Jeffrey Epstein have made Americans suddenly care about pedophiles* although when a hundred thousand of us Catholic Priest victims came forward last decade, you could hear a pin drop.

And since that day on the bus, the word "pedophile" has shown up all over the place. I was posting about Covid-19 protests in Germany yesterday on Facebook and someone I kind of know chimed in something about satanic pedophiles, I mean a total non sequitur. 
Plus Why? 
Why is it okay to shout the word Pedophile in all kinds of out of context places now?

Odds are there are pedophile survivors being triggered by those shouts. 
Like me.
There are so many sex crimes against children in USA that my favorite shrink once told me pedophilia is a norm, statistically. The numbers of old guys raping children are so high that on a statistical epidemiological scale, it could be considered a norm.

So the person hollering pedophile may be sitting next to a pedophile survivor on that bus, a crime victim who's been trying for decades to make it through life without thinking about the pedophilia, and now those memories are triggered. 
Thanks.

When and how did it become okay to shout about pedophiles in public places? Just one of many weird things that have happened in USA last few years.

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*PS to reporters: Jeffrey Epstein's victims make him an ephebophile, not a pedophile, one who molests teenagers, not children. At least learn about a subject before exploiting it.

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Tuesday, October 22, 2024

You Cannot Shout Pedophile in a Crowded Room and claim it is free speech 

https://cityofangels25.blogspot.com/2024/10/you-cannot-shout-pedophile-in-crowded.html

Victims of real pedophilia are retraumatized by accusations like these w no vetting or proof about Tim Walz. When Insensitive trolls shout Pedophile anywhere they want to win political points, it's an abomination. Pls, MAGAs, learn what pedophilia really is so you’d know not to do this.

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Source of Art in this post is Enough Abuse website 

https://enoughabuse.org/get-the-facts/predators-pedophiles-rapists-and-other-sex-offenders/

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