It's ironic because when I started Heating Planet blog in September, I had this wonderful experience of several hours a day of no pain while I was blogging. I was engaging my mind and so I didn't notice the pain which is how the Lamaze childbirth technique is supposed to work. However, just like every drug I've taken since 1996 when I first got sick with this, after a while it stopped working and left me feeling worse. I have multiple autoimmune diseases and one of them is tendinopathy which, as I was copy and pasting and sitting up at the computer all those hours, apparently spread into my rib cage and my arms, and now I can barely even reach up I can't use my arms; I’m more crippled. The worst part about it is no one knows. I'm living in HUD senior housing and in the past 3 years I've gone from dancing around the building to walking with canes to walking on a walker to now barely even being able to do that, and no one has ever asked me what's wrong do you need help, not a neighbor or a staff person. I'm more angry about the staff people ignoring me because they're being paid a salary and most my neighbors are dealing with their own catastrophes in their life that cause them to end up being broke and alone in subsidized Senior housing, most of us female by the way which is a whole nother topic.
I HAD TO STOP WORKING SO HARD
It's too bad also because it was engaging my mind on Heating Planet posts for several hours a day that kept the pain down. Also, I'm pretty sure engaging my mind like that also helps prevent Alzheimer's and other memory issues that so many of my neighbors have. so I'm going to keep blogging even though I'm not really saying much of anything these days.
Today I have to take my trash out. I have to wait until I've had three doses of Tylenol and CBD gel cap which is all the painkiller I have these days.
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