I bet a lot of Americans are losing sleep these days.

I lie awake while my nation is infiltrated and slowly destroyed by wild-eyed brainwashed neighbors being used as a weapon against us. What Really Scares me is how much this MAGA coup is like Rwanda 1994, just on a much larger scale. Like wonder when the right wing media message will say, take your guns and shoot the liberals like radio station told Rwandans to pick up machetes and kill their neighbors. Wow. I am getting scared.

Finding posts I wrote years ago, here's another cool one

FRIDAY, DECEMBER 13, 2013

I have to remember I'm a visitor to this planet, here mainly to observe. Every winter I watch these humans in their Christmas rituals and, to be honest, I get jealous. It looks so warm and cozy, those family hearths and whatever. I have to remind myself, “This is something they do, not me,” so I can sit back and enjoy the scene from my platform here in the High Desert, taking notes, always taking notes. I have to admit though, a turkey dinner with trimmings would entertain these senses I have while in this human body better than my daily fare of rice and vegetables, which seems to be the only Earth food my stomach will tolerate. Oh well, hope to get back to my home planet soon, wherever it is, and compare notes with the other journalist travelers as to what they found while visiting their solar systems. Meanwhile, I ride around and around, waiting for January 1 when all this disruption stops and we return to normal schedules. Oh Mother Ship, when are you coming to get me?

Posted just now on Facebook, where you can find me here

TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 19, 2013 original post:

Being a crime victim actually gave me tools for life.

ANOTHER ONE:

MONDAY, NOVEMBER 11, 2013

LadyWomen born 1945-60, Gray Tweens, now face poverty in old age

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Ladywomen:  Not housewives, not career women, females who came of age too early for Ms Magazine but too late for Ladies Home Journal are today's "Ladywomen" though we could also be called “gray tweens.” Ladywomen grew up thinking we’d be supported by a husband and wound up supporting ourselves, usually in low paying jobs, often raising kids singlehandedly as well, as we Ladywomen were also the first of the “single mom” phenomenon.  Now as I become an old lady, my suspicions are confirmed, women from my generation, born 1945 to 62 or so, are facing poverty in unprecedented numbers, just because of the quirky period of time in which we happened to be born.  When I grew up,.. 

ANOTHER ONE: 

SATURDAY, APRIL 27, 2013

My homeless encounter w/Charlie Sheen

Someday I'd love to ask Charlie Sheen if a priest got to him when he was a kid, causing all this sex/drugs dysfunction, and also ask if he remembers the most horrible looking female he ever saw in his life, me, driving by him that day. His eyes met mine as I inched by.  Horror.  Repugnance shock.  Ugh.  UGH!!!  That's what his face said as he looked at me. 

MORE TO COME 

-ke

Ah Aging

I was thinking about writing this story as a memoir then realized I already wrote it in 2012::

Half audience booed, half cheered at Dylan concert 1965. I know, I was there

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I WAS THERE when Bob Dylan plugged in his guitar and half the audience booed.  It was September 1965 at the Hollywood Bowl...   (Click headline to read)

-ke

Republicans are like Catholic priests who claim to be celibate while screwing whenever they can.  Today's Republicans take all the government money they can get while claiming to be self reliant and libertarian. -Me, Kay Ebeling Oct 12, 2012 on this blog 

USA now Alice Through Looking Glass ass backwards

The Right embraced Russian Dissidents as if they were saints just a few decades back. From Rush Limbaugh to Young Republicans, people ESCAPING Russia were heroes.

They were ESCAPING PUTIN's government!!! Putin, the right's new ... superman.

Anyone else remember how Republicans embraced Russian Dissidents as if they were enlightened political prophets just a few decades back?

I keep thinking of the planeloads of Russian emigres that came to LA in 1980s w/Reagan's blessing. They filled up blocks of apartment buildings in East Hollywood, which at the time had too many vacancies... imagine.

From Rush Limbaugh to the Patriots' movement birth, the "refusenik's" who were ESCAPING Russia were heroes. Now USA is like Alice through the looking glass... in opposite land... making Putin whose world the dissidents were escaping, their new ... uberman.

KayE of Tahoe

@CassandraofTro2

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Trump is running USA from Mara Lago using Speaker of House as his puppet. We are living in a John LeCarre novel...

Kay Ebeling  especially since Vladimir Putin is using Trump as His puppet...

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Trump is running USA from Mara Lago using Speaker of House as his puppet. We are living in a John LeCarre novel... especially since Vladimir Putin is using Trump as His puppet... 

American Caste system takes shape in homeless encampments

There are videos of slums in India. L.A. seems heading to be like Calcutta or Mumbai. Their slums are what our "encampments" will look like in a few more years. Our uber capitalist system keeps sucking any wealth to the top, while the rest of us scrabble for crumbs to survive. USA needs a good dose of socialism, say it outright, the wealth of our nation belongs to all of us. Most homeless people have worked would work if there was work. Only a crass uncaring system lets unhoused people live like this. For Shame USA  

 THIS IS ANOTHER GOOD VIDEO OF THE ISSUE  

Then take this look at Indian slums:

Even Las Vegas is going slum 

Blog Post by Kay Ebeling 

One nation under Godfather

 "They gotta pay for protection," Trump shouts to cheers. treating NATO like a thug shaking down a local barber. USA is about to be a nation run like organized crime.

If I can see it, what's wrong with Legacy Media?

As far back as 2017 I was blogging about the Russian influence on Trump 

https://cityofangels25.blogspot.com/search?q=Russia&max-results=20&by-date=false 

I think Trump himself is a weapon that entered USA in same manner as Trojan Horse entered Troy

https://cityofangels25.blogspot.com/search?q=trojan+horse 

that USA has been under attack by information warfare since at least 2013 

https://cityofangels25.blogspot.com/search?q=disinformation 

And I'm just an old lady with a laptop who used to write press releases for NASA so smarter than most but still... why has all mainstream media ignored the damage Trump is doing, as if he himself was a weapon being used to destroy USA. By Whom? 

Almost like being brainwashed. Then it went on to next level of crazy

Just heard a line that  describes what whoever is producing the right wing propaganda right now is doing to USA. 

“It was so gradual over the months that you just kind of accepted the crazy.  It's almost like being brainwashed.  And then it went to the next level of crazy.” (Cecelia Pierce re Pamela Smart's tactic to get three high school kids including Pierce to kill Smart's husband) 

It gets crazy for so long that crazy becomes normal. 

Then it will go to the next level of crazy. Same kind of manipulation is going on today on a grand scale by anti American propagandists, for who knows what purpose.  

Glad I'm living in the woods...

I think the Twin Towers are still falling down on us.

Someone got to Ketanji and Elena

Someone got to them. Why else would Ketanji Brown Jackson and Elena Kagan repeat MAGA sound bytes in Supreme Court hearing yesterday? Makes this blog post I wrote before watching hearing yesterday more true:

This coup is bigger than all of us, and complicating my life

Every time the DOJ or Dems try . . .

USA is lost. We are now just going through motions.

I think the Twin Towers are still falling down on us.

Why Not?

Dems should hold a convention and openly VOTE for a candidate for president. Imagine, all the press, all the Fun, all the younger more forward-moving candidates!

 Plus ça change, plus c’est la même chose

This coup is bigger than all of us, and complicating my life

Every time the DOJ or Dems try a way to put the brakes on Trump, immediately Trump’s people have an antidote. It's as if they know in advance how the DOJ or local judges are going to respond, like the Trumpers are carrying out strategies they planned decades ago. In fact getting Donald Trump elected was likely just part of their attack.

And now we are all playing out their script.

Who is “we”? who is “they”?

I wish I didn't care. Wish I could just hang out on a couch and watch TV but I don't have a couch or a TV

They knew in advance what would happen if they got Trump in office in 2016, and they've been manipulating events to go their way since then.  Now enemies of USA are sitting in a cave somewhere laughing at Americans as we fall for one of their traps after another as they manipulate the destruction of one American right and privilege after another.  

Emotionally living through this coup is especially difficult for me, and curiously strange. Because at the same time as I'm having to disconnect from any emotional bond to my nation. . .

the USA that I sacrificed in many ways at many times in my life to serve, that I've felt deep attachment to since preteen years-

at the same time I'm having to let that inherent patriotism go. . .

I'm having to let go of my daughter. She has chosen the streets of L.A. over me.  When she cut me off with no explanation last Christmas, I realized, she is sending me a message that she does not want to say out loud, though she has said it out loud to me before.

She's telling me she does not want me in her life. I think she does not want me to see how bad it got for her.

So I have to let her go. Naranon meetings are helping.

At the same time my nation does not want me in its sphere of concern.

So I have to let go of the United States at the same time I let go of my daughter. I don't usually blog about topics this personal, but I doubt many readers will get this far, I doubt my daughter or son will ever read this, but it just helps to know I wrote it, published it, and in so doing, made it reality.

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Strange.

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Also at the same time I have a dental cap in the front of my mouth that has come loose and I want it to fall out but it is grounded in deep.  It's the third of four porcelain caps I got in the 1980s in L.A. that has fallen out of my mouth last few months, leaving me with goofy looking gaps in my mouth that would be embarrassing except that I don't smile much these days, so no one sees them.

This one cap just gets a little more loose every day but no matter how much I wiggle it, it won’t come out. I have a feeling when this cap finally comes out, I will have made a lot more progress in the mourning process I'm going  through with my daughter and my nation.

Hope so.

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One more note just if anyone ever reads this…

Everything was fine between me and my daughter, and my adult son who lives in Idaho, until around 2011-12.  

I was in Chicago then doing “investigative journalism” trying to dig up proof of my case against the Chicago archdiocese for letting me be sexually assaulted over and over again by one of their priests, in Bartlett, when I was a little girl.

I was just starting to make progress on my case.  At least I had found enough evidence to prove to myself that it all really did happen, and I was trying to find evidence to prove the crimes to other people.

Naively I was writing about the whole “investigation” experience on my blog and anyone could read it.

Within a few days of each other, right after I wrote a post there in my little room in Chicago saying I now know my case really did happen, suddenly both my children cut me off.

Over Facebook. 

It upset me so bad that I ended my “investigation” and came back home to L.A. as soon as I could to try to fix whatever went wrong.

I never got the chance.

Neither of my adult children has spoken or opened up in any way to me since then.

Then this year just as I thought my daughter and I were going to start healing, she at least had let me know where she was living and given me a phone number I could use to reach her---

She cut me off again.  At Christmas time. 

And I just know but cannot prove that the Church did something to cause both my children to cut me off at the same time that way. I never did finish my investigation... 

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I never returned to Chicago, never finished my “investigation” and I will never stop believing that the Church did something SOMETHING to make both my adult children turn against me with no explanation at that same time.

Back on topic for this blog post.

So while I live through the USA self destructing, I'm having to let go of hope that I’ll ever reunite with either of my children…

I have to let go of all of it- my nation, my family, my front tooth cap— all at the same time, and find something new to hold onto. Meanwhile I keep wiggling and wiggling the loose tooth cap, anticipating a relief when it all finally breaks free of me.

I have to accept that I may never know what really happened, to my family or my nation.

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With the military might of the U.S. DOD, who’d a thunk our nation would be brought down by an orange clown. We have 10 times more nuclear weapons than any other nation, yet it only took carefully worded tweets by Russian propagandists to get Americans to self destruct. 

Who’d a thunk

With the military might of U.S. Defense, who’d a thunk our nation would be brought down by an orange clown. The USA has10 times more nuclear weapons than any other nation, yet it only took carefully worded tweets by Russian propagandists to get Americans to self destruct. Continues here

I watch as fascists take over USA one small library and govt agency at a time; I am unable to stop them with reasoned protest, as the propagandists are twisting every American ideal to their favor, and destroying us from within.

I hope I live long enough to learn what is really going on now in USA.

My rose colored glasses have shattered to pieces.

Maybe I was not that bad after all

Looking back on my life, I often bemoan how many jobs I lost, how many organizations made it real clear they did not want me around. For long times these experiences would cause me sadness; I’d wonder what is wrong with me.

Only lately at age 75 looking back on those same times do I realize, bad guys don’t want honest people around. When people are getting away with a con, last thing they want is an intuitively nosey journalist poking around asking questions, and that's what I do, that's what I am. All my life I conjured my way to the inner circles and top levels of places just from a natural born instinct I've always had to dig up the truth and expose dishonesty.
Maybe since I was a sex crime victim at age five – six, alertness to danger implanted itself in my DNA. At age 6 your cells are still forming, so mine formed with an inherent distrust, making me hyper sensitive of potential perpetrators from that age on.
So all my life criminal types didn't want me around, and I finally realize that's not something I should feel bad about. I feel bad about being lonely in my old age, yeah, but I was never purposely bad. I just live on a planet full of bad people who I'd rather not be around.

I'd be having so much more fun if I was just dumb enough to be MAGA

Sing it like James Taylor: The Shower's Where Secrets Were Stuffed by Trump

lololol "The Shower's Where Secrets Were Stuffed by Trump, shoved them there next to the sink." SING IT!!! Parody by Rocky Mountain Mike https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GZT4O-gxX4

 

Thank you Rocky Mountain Mike

I first encountered the internet when it was called telemetry, at NASA in 1979, Skylab Re-entry Mission

Another Broadway quality protest song at L.A. City Council meeting: 'They don’t care about democracy'

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There's something Dickensian in Stacey Segarra-Bohlinger singing her public comments to L.A. City Council. 

She’s like Madame Defarge knitting.

Stacey delivered another Broadway quality protest song at the Los Angeles City Council meeting Jan 24. 

Lyric transcribed below watch her sing it here :

(Video is cued close to 01:34:10 where Stacey's public comment / song begins)

STACEY: [SINGING] 

Number seven under chapter two of the L.A. City Council rules clearly states that you shall hear us speak near the beginning of the meeting.

Nithya* why are you so afraid to do the work for which you're paid?  I hate that for the folks who call in to the meetings they are likely to be prevented from speaking because Council body is only power seeking, they don’t care about democracy.

[Editor’s note, the melody Stacey has improvised to sing these words is Broadway quality, as is her voice, making her appearances at L.A. City Council meetings a highlight, a reason to return to watch next meeting on L.A. City Clerk’s YouTube channel https://www.youtube.com/@LACityClerk  ]

STACEY: [STILL SINGING] Kevin DeLeon resign, I haven’t forgotten your crimes, it's just that  Nithya has failed she is complicit as well.  Her promises are only lies she tells when it comes to racism.

[Buzzer sounds speaker’s time expired. End of transcript]

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At this very critical time in American history, we all need to find unprecedented ways to get information out past the censors and controllers.  

And because it's L.A. where half the population has probably at one point been performers of some kind, the City Council should have more artistic expression.

It's tres L.A. 

I love to watch public comments at meetings, in Florida, Michigan, Huntington Beach... Americans are going a weird kind of crazy right now and I'm observing from six thousand feet up on three laptop screens at once, feeling very futuristic. 

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* Nithya is Nithya Raman, current council rep for District Four 

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Related Posts https://cityofangels25.blogspot.com/search?q=Stacey+Segarra 

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More to come here at City of Angels Blog, I'm sure. 

Posted by Kay Ebeling from the High Sierras as it's not just L.A., the city of angels is everywhere 

 

Connect on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/kay.ebeling 

or Twitter https://twitter.com/CassandraofTro2

-ke   

"I don't know why we're putting stars on sidewalks while there's people dying on them."

Another Zinger from Stacey Segarra-Bohlinger at L.A. City Council mtg Jan 19, re priorities "Item four Walk of Fame. I don't know why we're putting stars on sidewalks while there's people dying on them." (Watch at 38:03 below) Posted by Kay Ebeling