Where I use imagination to turn isolation into adventure, by pretending
to be an astronaut on assignment to a remote outpost in space.
As I go one
day to another not able to get out my door, I fantasize that I am on assignment on a space station, I was trained to deal with long periods alone
by NASA, so I can handle it. Now in early 2017 the assignment
is complete, and I'm waiting for the Mother Ship to come get me. For
some reason it's delayed. So I'm making
the best of the situation.
Inside this place where most my supplies get delivered, almost all my communication is over a laptop connected to people who I never seen in person, in cyberspace.
EVA is what I
now call an excursion into the populated area nearby in what could be a hostile
atmosphere. There are metal objects that
whiz by on the highway and often emit poison with a burst of black smoke right in your
face. Many of the buildings I enter seem
to have lighting that is toxic for people from my planet, and either the sun can
burn my skin or the wind can make me freeze, so I only stay out on most EVAs for
short periods of time.
Back when the
U.S. space program first started, in the mid Twentieth Century, they tested astronauts for endurance, in preparation
for the long periods of time in isolation needed for space travel, work in
the solar system that they knew would happen one day.
Well I seem
to have evolved to survive under those conditions. They tell me human contact is necessary for
survival, like cats we need actual contact with each other. But if one goes long enough without human
contact, do they reach a point where they just don’t need it?
Hmm.
pic of me in space found on Google |
The residents
of this region where I'm staying at the end of my assignment have many
practices that completely rub me wrong. For instance their diet. After much
experimentation, I've found best way to survive on this planet is Not to eat
the animals, but most the residents here eat them. I find that I produce much less waste that needs
to then be cleaned up and disposed of here in my space station and also I use
less resources if I keep my diet strictly to the plants that grow in the soil. So since animal products
seem to be in everything you eat in prepared food outlets in this area, I
rarely eat anything I don't cook myself, rarely eat when I'm on my EVAs.
Just waiting here in South Lake Tahoe for the Mother ship to come get me.
Most of my
time now is spent in observation, as I wait.
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How Long Are These Earthling Bodies Supposed to Last?
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How Long Are These Earthling Bodies Supposed to Last?
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One problem
though is pain. The body I've been in for
almost seventy Earth years now is getting worn out and, frankly, I thought the
guys who sent me here would have come to get me by now, so I would not have to go through this.
I'm Getting Old and Worn Out.
I don't dare go to doctors here as they just don’t understand the makeup of this body, there are elements that are not perfect, and they treat me with pharmaceuticals and recommendations that may work on humans but often do me more damage to me than good. Plus I'm afraid if a doctor does too thorough an examination, they might figure out who I really am.
I'm Getting Old and Worn Out.
I don't dare go to doctors here as they just don’t understand the makeup of this body, there are elements that are not perfect, and they treat me with pharmaceuticals and recommendations that may work on humans but often do me more damage to me than good. Plus I'm afraid if a doctor does too thorough an examination, they might figure out who I really am.
So this body
is breaking down a bit and it hurts.
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Other day I contemplated just taking myself out, what Earthlings call suicide. But I know from my programming, I have to stay here until they come get me. The end of my time here has to be natural, or I won’t make the connection to travel onto the next place. I don't want to end up floating around in Dark Matter somewhere or stuck on this planet as a ghost or being born as an Earthling over and over again, I want to go on to the next place. So I have to get through this last era in my life on planet Earth.
Other day I contemplated just taking myself out, what Earthlings call suicide. But I know from my programming, I have to stay here until they come get me. The end of my time here has to be natural, or I won’t make the connection to travel onto the next place. I don't want to end up floating around in Dark Matter somewhere or stuck on this planet as a ghost or being born as an Earthling over and over again, I want to go on to the next place. So I have to get through this last era in my life on planet Earth.
It's not that
bad. I'm waiting for them to come for me
on top of a mountain. I moved here as it
just seemed being on top of a mountain near a big blue lake would make it
easier for them to find me, although I hear it really isn’t necessary.
I came to
Tahoe because most of this planet is self destructing, becoming an environmental
hellhole, and new people in charge have made it clear they're going to get laws
passed that will make the planet almost uninhabitable, except for those who are
able to profit from the extractions.
It's sad seeing a planet as beautiful as Earth being misused this way,
some really hardworking people in places like the Democratic and Green political
parties did everything they could to stop it, but we lost this one.
For the next
decades, as they extract resources from everywhere on this planet and build developments in beautiful places with little regard
for the very environment that keeps them beautiful, the results will be disastrous. This planet will be
an crude oil refuse covered hellscape soon and it will stay that way a while, so I'm
kind of glad my assignment here is coming to an end before it gets too bad. I got to live on this planet in the U.S.A. at the tail end of a real good period, and I hope
to come back some time hundreds of years from now to see how this all turns
out.
So while I
wait for the Mother Ship to get me, now that my 60-80 year tour of duty on the planet
is drawing to a close, I'll go ahead and take more EVAs, even bring the digital lens
with me so I can document some of the beauty of this special place where I'm
waiting, Lake Tahoe. Listen to all
the different languages that you hear at the Commons, a place on the lake that
serves as a city park.
Just take
more EVAs ‘til they come for me.
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As I go into day three or four inside this room I am lucky to have an active imagination
I seem to stay inside even when the weather is good. I'm homebound by my circumstances which I've listed here at CofA Blog and also here at the Pedophile Priest blog enough times before. Apparently all the trauma I went through caused my brain to create a great way of dealing with difficult times, using an active imagination with a sense of whimsy.
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Remember 2 days ago when I was so sad and lonely? Well I dealt with it by writing this story.
Posted by Kay
floating in space in cosmic city of angels
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